Fantasy readers know that energy needs to be focused or chaos ensues. If I can’t keep my energy focused and productive, I will create havoc in my life.
I’m talking about men, of course. My Whirlwind Barcelona Boyfriend (WBB) and I don’t talk now. I didn’t mope (much). We had a good time together and my Barcelona experience was better for meeting him.
Nope, I didn’t mope. I got back online and started chatting again.
In fact, when I’m in Spain trying out the farm worker thing in February, I’m going to meet up with a new guy.
My goal while we wait to meet is to stop playing the "what if" game. "What if I meet him and I don’t like him or he doesn’t like me?" or "what if we really like each other initially but it turns into a disaster later?" or even "what if we end up dating and I want to spend the rest of my life in Spain?"
Many other questions pop into my head, especially after talking to Cate, whose own WBB experience has been so positive (he’s visiting her in March). But I force myself not to answer them.
So, what would happen if I did answer the questions?
Well, I’d live through the relationship right to the end thereby creating an unreal expectation. Since reality can never match what goes on inside my head, I’d damn things from the start.
And how does this relate to an easy, organized life? It’s simple. If I let my imagination run wild then I allow in too much chaos and that chaos messes up the emotions, which messes up my life.
I need to focus on simple questions, and focus my energy on writing.
Do I like him? Do I want to meet him? Yes and yes. Done. And now I’m writing about it.
- Energy needs to be channeled or it will cause havoc.
- When your mind is cluttered, your space and your ability to juggle activities will suffer.