This weekend my mother sent me an email worried that I’m not as happy as I say I am. Given my many frustrations and my continual insistence that everything is great, I’m surprised she’s the only one who has challenged me on this so far.
The problem isn’t my happiness (or lack thereof); the problem is the blog itself. You see, I’ve dealt with the major changes in my life and now I’m simply continuing on, living a conscious life while pursuing my dreams. In trying to come up with five posts a week about my life, I end up mining the minute details, extracting tiny fragments of annoyance or fear then refining them and adding to them until they are presentable as Someday Lessons.
This email comes at just the right time. I’ve been questioning the role of this blog in my life. I don’t want to give it up, but it needs to change. My recently writings (to me) have felt forced and more than a little unauthentic. I’ve therefore decided to re-examine the blog and its purpose. So, over the next few weeks while I determine and develop the new direction, I’m going to cut back on the number of posts during the week.
Think of it as an anticipatory lull.
- When we try to force meaning we lose authenticity.
- Everything has a life cycle – don’t push something back the point it should end or transform.